11 & 12 June 2025
I woke early yesterday, feeling like a train had ploughed straight through me during the night. My throat burned, my eyes stung, and every inch of my body ached. I had no energy — and absolutely no time to get properly sick right now.
Thankfully, my first aid kit still had a few flu tablets, so I dosed myself straight away. But by 9 am, when my shift at reception started, it was clear the day was going to be rough.
Sitting still for six hours is already a challenge for me. I’m a creature of movement — being tied to a chair, staring at a computer, drains me fast. But today, with my body feeling like it had been hit by a freight train, every minute dragged, each one stretching into an eternity. By noon, I couldn’t sit upright any longer. I asked if I could leave early, and thankfully, the manager was kind enough to let me go.
I collapsed into bed and stayed there the rest of the day. No appetite. No energy to even walk downstairs to the restaurant. Just sleep, a blur of restless dreams, and the occasional scroll through mindless YouTube videos when I surfaced for air.
This isn’t unusual for me after a big emotional release — like the one that cracked me open during my quantum shift session the day before. Working with intense emotional energies almost always leaves a mark on the physical body.
We’re conditioned to suppress, to carry on without pause, to wear “I’m fine” like armor while the weight builds inside. But I’ve learned this: deep healing takes space. Rest is part of the integration. Rest is medicine.
So I silenced the little voice that tried to tell me, you don’t have time to be sick, and let my body do what it needed: surrender to stillness.
Somewhere between naps and random YouTube videos, I managed to book bus tickets to Ipoh for the weekend. My new friend invited me to spend a few days on a farm in the rainforest with two of his friends. The thought lights me up.
I’ve been craving the forest — the wild green energy, the hum of ancient trees. While Ipoh isn’t exactly the Taman Negara region I’ve been dreaming of, the idea of exploring a new area with locals feels perfect. I just hope my body remembers its strength by then, ready to greet the next adventure with open arms.
